Never too much

I get called too much

I got a hunch

I will never be met

With the depths I seek

They all say it isn't that deep

But the depths always seem to sneak in the cracks

It is that deep

You're just scared to go there

Or maybe you just dont care

…

Some think I'm crazy

But at the same time my past is hazy

I lived like a crazy man

Nothing to live for

So the least i deserve

Is to live free

To love as deep as I can

Be as much as I am

…

Sometimes loving this deeply feels like a mistake

In a world so full of the fake

The performative

Those that refuse to be reformitive

Of their deformities

It is what it is

…

But honestly

It is pretty shit to not work on yourself

Change is hell

Makes you want to ring the bell

But same with being stuck

Keep spinning your wheels

Getting high centered

Or start digging and working for better

…

It isn't a mistake

I couldn't be fake

Nobody knows how much work it takes

To be this calm

How much damage it took

To care

In a world completely unfair.

I am who I am too

But at least im working on my flaws

Clenching my jaw

Becoming the best man

Working on every flaw

…

I was never too much

Has the sunset ever been called too pretty?

The forest too vast?

I refuse to be belittled because of my past

Or the future I build

I will die on this hill

At least then I'll be dead

…

I was never too much

Never too broken

I'm just open

To all the possibilities in front of me

And I refuse to live

Anything but free

Refuse to be anyone but me

…

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